In writing my last post, I realized something…I’m come here to write about my depression, complaints, hurt feelings, my anger after arguments with Bay and all other frustatrations…  It didn’t start out being that type of blog but I guess it has evolved into what I need. I feel bad always complaining to My Bay. And I haven’t been able to "feel" God lately, so although I may talk to Him, a lot of times I don’t get that feeling of resolve that I need. So this has become my sounding board where I put some of the heavy parts of my heart. In real life, I don’t think that I come off as a whoa is me type of person. I try to appear upbeat and semi happy. But just like everyone else I have issues, and bad things going on in my life that I need to let out sometimes. I can’t always go to My Bay with how I am feeling. That’s why I think I needed this blog to become the house of my heavy heart. I think I might rename this blog that. It fits. And although there are a few people that seem to be reading, I come here for me and only me. I come here to release and get it out with the hope that if I put it somewhere it doesn’t have to live in my heart anymore. No comments needed, no judgements passed…just my heart released.